Monday, June 9, 2014

It is finished.

I have so many emotions: finality, relief, sorrow, peace. How does someone even begin to sort through all of that.

Saturday, we had Anna's grave marker placed. After many months, it's done. There is nothing left for me to do. 

As relieved as I am, it almost makes me sad. There is nothing left that I will ever do for my daughter. There is nothing else to do. It's over.

But at the same time that exact same thing makes me so happy. I have done everything for my daughter that I could possibly do. I, in a way, have fulfilled my job as her mother. 

Anna is always going to be my daughter, my first little baby. She will always be part of who we are as a family and my life is better for having the privilege of being her mother. I'm proud of the lives she touched without breathing her first breath. That's my girl.

Little Anna, watch over us. Especially your little brother, Luke, as we prepare to bring him into this world. I look forward to the day we can all be together again. 

I love you forever.

- mom 

1 comment:

  1. So sweet. I am glad we had a grave marker placed for Gregory. You're's like the last thing you do for them. And at Gregory's funeral, our priest said how Craig and I were successful parents because our job is to help get our children to Heaven and we had gotten one of ours to Heaven now. Of course, back then it hurt to hear the words, but they bring me comfort now...